I realize this has been happening for almost 10 years now, but never have I felt it like I did this weekend.
Our big rock concert fundraiser was on Saturday: Tellerpalooza. The one that Bryan and I work on all year long, and the one that Declan has actually started contributing, real, valuable ideas to.
He saw that the logo was very graphic this year, so he suggested I make a coloring page out of it for the younger grades at his school to get excited about. Totally, 100% his idea.
Then, on Saturday - our big day - I was feeling the stress. Bryan was already at the venue, making sure everything was set up and running smoothing. I was home, dodging last minute emergencies. I almost decided to run away the circus, because let me tell you - getting five bands to play - six when you include the school band - plus a magician, plus sponsors, plus donations, and then have 800 people coming to see it all? Stressful.
My kid says to me, "Mama, we should do something to relax."
A lightbulb went off inside my head. I had been trying to go get a pedicure all week. There is a little place up the street that takes walk-ins. I could have Declan go with me. Right?
We have never gone for gender stereotypes and Declan paints his nails here and there as he feels like it. I was more worried that all the clipping and pulling and super hot water would freak him out.
He flip-flopped about 10 times on the way there, but in the end, he agreed.
We're in a new place, him and me.
He's old enough to not only tolerate something like a pedicure, he is actually enjoying it.
I got a little melancholy. He is our one and only. There are so many things I will never experience again.
But think of all the things I will.