Especially since I just got back from the I Heart Faces Conference and made several lovely new friends... and everyone should always be open to new people in their lives. But generally. I am 43, my son has started middle school - and I am feeling, well... tired.
Recently I attended Back to School night and Bryan couldn't go. He waved goodbye and the words "Meet a bunch of new people!" wafted after him as he walked out the door.
Meet a bunch of new people.
My heart absolutely sank.
When did the prospect of that become so incredibly daunting?
The process of Back To School night included parents changing classes just as the kids do, moving around the very large and scary school together en mass - including lunch period. Lunch period, which - during middle and high school - was the worst. That feeling of "who do I sit with?" - and wondering who was laughing behind my back.
Am I having PTSD as my son enters this time in his life? Is this why all the parents who already knew each other from elementary school huddled together in the lunchroom?
I joked that I was perfectly fine with THEM as my friends, all the way through the next three years. Why branch out? I am comfortable.
Of course I will make friends with any new pals of Dex's. Of course I will be friendly at school meetings. Of course I will look for friendship opportunities as they come, just like the conference this weekend.
But run out and "meet new people!" - ?
I am not there right now and that's cool with me.